I lie on my bed naked as I watch TV.
It’s okay, nobody’s watching.
I’m watching something grotty, it’s better than anything soppy.
It’s okay, nobody is watching me watching this.
Though as the action fades to black I see my own reflection.
Watching me watching this watching that naked.
And I look at my reflection and pull the covers over.
I look at my reflection and throw the remote over.
But there I am, staring right back at me.
And the only thing I long for.
Is a reflection-free TV.
is the absence of one.
Or when your arms are on the floor along with your intestines, because boy, you tried to carry that weight.
Whichever works for you.
I miss tripping over all those clothes piles
I miss untangled that mess of wires
I miss moving the plastic container boxes to get to my books
I miss holding my body against the door to keep it open
I miss climbing over a body to get to the shower
All that clutter, I miss it so.
What felt soft now feels numb
What felt hard now feels numb
What felt cold now feels numb
What felt warm now feels numb
What felt worthwhile now feels numb
These fingers of mine can only feel Cortopin, itches, and cuts.
It’s the new sensation, and I’m quick to the touch.
Over time, but not too much time, I found myself to be blocked. My head was full of wax, it started to coat the brain. My nose was stuffed with a full roll of tissue, you could pull it out like magic cloths. My mouth, packed with debris. I breathed and ate through a hole in my neck, but even then there was a blockage of syrup to contend with. It spurted out like blood in a zombie flick, and you could spread it on toast.
Then there was my stomach hanging in a web of bubblegum, and the intestines could barely contain all the gravel I swallowed on my travels. My heart pumped against a layer of Lego bricks. I was clogged up, blocked up, fucked up, funked up, gunked up. Continue reading
I’m waiting for the sun to set
I’m waiting for a new tomorrow
I’m waiting for the man
I’m also waiting for the woman
I’m waiting for something to change
But to be really honest
I’m just waiting for my bus to come.
I’ve been waiting for fifty minutes
And it’s cold!
It’s never a bother. a problem, a concern.
Even if it makes you squirm.
Even if it keeps you up all night.
Even if you lose your way
It’s certainly no bother, no problem, no concern?