I’m always on the cusp of getting where I want to be. One more step, one more task, and I’ve done it, I’m an average person like the rest of you all. One more email, one more story, one more schedule, one more gym sign-up, one more social interaction, one more diet, one more list, one more sort out, and then I’m there. Yet I never seem to make it, always on the cusp. And maybe the thing is, I’ve given up, and these are just words to bury that painful truth. I’ve given up and don’t know how to say it. All those tasks to get to where I need to be, they’ll always be there, I’ll keep on moving the goal posts because I can’t get there, I’ve given up.
The cusp has me by the cusp. It took a meditative experience on Tetris Effect to make me realise this. The visual effects made my eyes itchy.